My Surrogacy

I've had a lot more people express concern over my decision to carry someone else's baby than I expected. I was prepared for nay-sayers I guess, but I didn't realize that a majority of them would react in that way because they loved me. I also found that I received overwhelming support from those who loved me as well but also understood how much this meant to me.

I think it is important for me to share why I am doing this. Yes, I'm getting paid. That is at the bottom of my very long list of reasons, however. It is by pure dumb luck that I am as fertile as I am. When I was in my early 20's I discovered that I had endometriosis and it was quickly removed with surgery. Between the time I'd heard this and the surgery I couldn't help but wonder what this would mean for me when I was ready to be a mother. Would I have trouble? What if I never had children? Was it something I'd done? When a woman's body doesn't do what it is supposed to it is difficult not to feel broken and guilty. ABout six years later, after literally only one try, Logan and I became pregnant with our little Abby. A year after she was born I was pregnant again with twins. Needless to say, my infertility fears were long gone. In their place I felt so much guilt. For whatever reason I was as fertile as they come and I would hear stories of women who endured great physical and financial hardship just to have the chance at motherhood. To this day my heart aches for those women because I want to take that pain away so badly. That is what I'm doing. The couple I'm carrying for are some of the most kind, loving and deserving people I've ever met. I will spend the next 10 months doing whatever it takes to ensure that they are able to know the joy of parenthood. It won't be easy, I'll throw up a lot, and my kids will spend more time watching Super Why than I'd like but in the end two people will be changed forever and a little person (or two) will be welcomed into a home where he or she will be loved completely. Believe me when I say that what I give up while pregnant is nothing compared to what will be gained. I know I'm taking risks and I'm terrified, but no more of a risk than I'd take having a fourth child... that I do not want to do.

To those who worry, don't. To those who understand, thank you. To those who think it is wrong.... my body, my choice.